All I want for Christmas is YOU

Shit, It's almost Christmas... And I dont know what Im feeling these past few days... I t feels like shit.. I dont know, but I think im missing someone or somebody, Am i not suppose to? Why am i feeling this?? Fuck you! or i mean her.. what? SHIIIIET! Is this the case of me not being preoccupied with school stuff.. or something.. holy shit!, Why cant i just not miss her, I likeD her and i could've loved her a few months ago, but after what happened, fuck it, I wanted to forget her, I drowned myself in school and what not.. So why in the hell am I feeling shit.. I just want to be happy, Who doesn't? I just want the toughts to leave me alone... So its almost Christmas, and I really dont know what i want.. Im not really expecting gifts, so I wont get dissapointed when I dont receive any... I usually give presents if I have the money or something, If I dont, Ill try to give Christmas cards to some of my friends.. Well, let me think, I think what i want this Christmas, is to play with my band, and I think that's gonna happen tonight.. What else.. hmmm..

1. Someone to hug
2. Someone to...

Shit it's hard to think what I want when you dont want anything material, or maybe theres something inside me that just wants you....

to be with you... I dont know if i want to be friends with you or anything but I just want to be with you and I dont know why... maybe I just miss you a lot..



im not suppose to be feeling this, I hope that after Christmas, this would all be gone...

Its hard when you cant talk to the people you trust like yesterday, specially when they're preoccupied with their uhm, you know what... At least I still have some who never left me.. need I mention their names? You know who you are... I miss my best'gurl'friends.. hope you're happy this christmas, dont worry, Ill try to be.....