[I COST P422]from kaye. yung kapatid ni cha hehe

You look it over the following list and see how many of these things you have done. BUT you have to ADD up the money amount along the way. Then post the amount that you are as the title of the bulletin.

PS: the smaller the better!

1. Had sex: P40.00

2. Smoked: P40.00

3. drank alcohol: P20.00

4. Went skinny dipping: P40.00

5. Kissed someone of the opposite sex: P4.00

6. Kissed someone of the same sex:P20.00

7. Cheated on a test: P28.00

8. Fell asleep in class: P20.00

9. Been expelled: P40.00

10. Been in a fist fight: P40.00

11. Given oral: P40.00

12. Got oral: P40.00

13. Prank called the police: P40.00

14. Stole something: P40.00

15. Done drugs: P40.00

16.Dyed your hair: P20.00

17. Done something sexually with someone older (like a few years): P40.00.

18. Courted someone OVER 18 (if your under 18): P40.00

19. Ate a whole bag of oreos: P40.00

20. Cried yourself to sleep: P2.00

21. Said you love someone but didnt mean it: P4.00

22. Been in love: P20.00

23. Got caught doing something that you shouldnt have been doing: P40.00

24. Went streaking: P4.00

25. Got arrested: P40.00

26. Cuddled: P4.00

27. Peed in the pool: P20.00

28. Played spin the bottle: P40.00

29. Done something you regret: P20.00

Now add up and post as "I COST P......

baon ko.. tuition ko nasasayang

gutom ako.. gusto ko kumain ng anu.. basta yan... kaso walang pasok, wala akong baon, wala akong pang yellow cab..huhuhu

19 years on earth

[not yet done, Ill finish later, off to school]

I woke up two minutes before midnight because, something bit/pierced my left ear, I touched it and I found blood in my fingers, I was in pain.
My classes ended half past ten in the morning, but I went home at three, i spent some time with regie and lelep. On my way home, I found myself alone, It was not a happy trip for me. Memories were flashing through my mind as I was looking outside the window of the bus. i found tears building up my eyes, I don't know why. Maybe last year's friday was happy.
Okay back to this time frame. I remembered that I left the PC open, it was downloading something, when it was finished, I checked my mail. I had some alerts on my multiply. It was someone I wasn't expecting to reply on my posts, She wasn't even suppose to read those. i found out later that I have set something wrong with who would be able to view my post. it's fixed now. Anyway. This time, tears built up in my eyes and flowed down my cheeks, I haven't experienced that for a long time. It made me think of many things. realization if you would call it that.

"Even if you are of adult age, People will only treat you like one iff, You act like one, You decide like one, You deserve to be treated like one"

I am still a kid after all, I still have so much to learn. I have learned to let go. I have let go of my ex girlfriend, but I have to admit, I haven't let go of my feelings for Jel.

People change, actually everything does, however, the rate of how people change depends. e.g. Some people might have moved on with their lives a lot faster than someone else. A person will change, what he feels, what he believes. who he trusts, it all depends on the things that happen around him and within him. Yet he enjoys some things the way they were, but he can't escape the fact that it will change no matter what, the only regret about this is that he did not change along with what he wanted to.

I need to learn to value the people around me more, show them that I really care, be less selfish and think about them too so I wont lose the important persons I have learned to be with.

Yes it's my birthday today, I always tell people, birthdays are for happy people, so it's not for me. Thanks Shinji for your side note on this. Thanks for the people who already greeted, Thanks to thepeople who have been there the past years of my life, You make it worthwhile, let me mention afew: CYandKaytee, X, Shinji, Nic, JM, Lep, Reg, Rain, Mico.. the list would go on... Anyway if one would ask what do I want? If I were to tell the truth, It's really a who. I want Jel more than anyone. I actually asked her out almost a year ago, I dont know why she picked someone else, maybe because of me being rash. the truth is, I just don't want to lose her anymore, I thought It was the right time to ask, after all the mishaps and almosts, but she picked someone else. That was something, You didn't know how i got through. actually I may not have yet...
I think what makes me think that I need her is because I want her badly. It's in my state of mind that I NEED her, because she is the only one who could make me happy. BUT do I really need her now? exactly.

"NECESSITY BEFORE LUXURY"

So there happy birthday to me, I'm not really happy though. Thanks for me and someone being late last wednesday. I won't be sleeping till midnight tonigh, something I try to do every year.

Thank you Anjelique for all the memories, the good and bad times. Four years ago, I idn't have a clue you'd make such a big impact in my life. I would surely want to meet you again someday.

xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo



This is a picture of someone way way back. Stole this from someone, hope they don't get mad.




I cut my hair, Its actually getting in my nerves since it curls up every now and then. besides there's so many people fashioning their hair that way.

This is how I look now:


Pardon me, I just watched Borat again for the nth time, I was imagining that he was speaking while i was typing the words that you have read. I have finished typing this post. great success. high five!


P.S.

to someone: "I don't have feelings for you anymore..."



"NOT"

what was it?

sign?
gift?
answer?
i was shocked, really..
at least..
ahould have not continued the trip to school,
should've got off there..
what could've happen? i don't know..
what did it meant? someone tell me..
im confused.. after the dream then this..
and it was raining so hard
i love it when it rains
its the feeling, happy but lonely
so close yet seems so far..
i hated it.. even though it made me smile...

it felt awkward too.. I shouldve not followed elijah's suggestion.. grrrrrrrr


























































































bakit kasi hindi heavy traffic

"i forgot how to be happy without you"

its the month, its the week, friday last year, how could i forget, id rather not remember, but you keep popping up in my head, chasing me in my dreams..

holy shiet

tamang tama walang pasok sa friday... tatapusin ko ito..... hahahahahaha

from X

be honest no matter what.

[one] have you ever been asked out?
i can't remember

[two] where is your default picture taken?
here

[three] what's your middle Name.
I have none

[four] your current relationship status?
with whom?

[five] does your crush like you back?
I don't have one

[six] what is your current mood?
tired of being sick, sick of being tired

[seven]what color underwear are you wearing?
I don't

[eight] what color bra are you wearing?
neon gray

[ten] if you could go back in time and change something, would you?
yes, just one thing

[eleven] if you must be an animal for one day, what animal?
a bird? ill follow her the whole day

[twelve] ever had a near death experience?
I think so

[fourteen] the song stuck in your head?
Paramore - When It rains

[fifteen] who did you copy and paste this from?
Francis Xavier BJORGENSTEIN

[sixteen] name someone with the same birthday as YOU?
I don't know anyone

[seventeen] when was the last time you cried?
i won't remember

[eighteen] have you ever sung in front of a large audience?
I don't think so

[nineteen] if you could have one super power what would it be?
Control Time

[twenty] what is the first thing you notice in the opposite sex?
The hair? or the eyes?

[twenty-one] what do you usually order from starbucks?
hot water

[twenty-two] what's your biggest secret?
it's a secret

[twenty-three] favorite color?
I can't remember

[twenty-five] do you still watch kiddy movies or tv shows?
sometimes, maybe not

[twenty-six] what are you eating or drinking at the moment.
distilled water

[twenty-seven] do you speak any other language?
does a dialect count?

[twenty-eight] what's your favorite smell?
the fragrant of a certain person

[twenty-nine] if you could describe your life in one word what would it be?
B-O-R-I-N-G

[thirty] when was the last time you gave/received a hug?
today, i hugged my parents

[thirty-one] have you ever kissed in the rain?
wtf.. of course

(thirty-two) what are you thinking about right now?
that dream from last night

[thirty-three] what should you be doing?
doing my reports

[thirty-four] who was the last person that made you upset/angry?
someone who wrote something for me

[thirty-five] how often do you pray?
When someone asks me to

[thirty-six] do you like working in the yard?
What's a yard?

[thirty-seven] if you could have any last name in the world, what would it be?
Almighty

its getting worse

referring to this: http://sithlordvader.multiply.com/journal/item/51

two nights last week, and on the first day of august, siet bad sign or not?


the thing is, last night in the dream, i knew it was a dream, i said, lets do something before i wake up, i really didnt want to wake up..i know its her... grr when will it come true?arrrrrgh its killing me